Saturday, July 15, 2006

thoughts by Leonard Nimoy

I have learned to want what I have.....


I value love because I have been lonely

Because I have tasted frustration I value fulfilment............

Sabbath Lesson for me #6

Well I went to West End today and it was good but I got lessons all day and not all of them happened in church. However the pastor did bring out one in a list of pointers to make one more intentionally focused;

pointer: Take the time to figure out what you really want

I ask this question on two levels of my life that are currently in a state of ughhhhhhhhh my personal life and my career.

For my personal life I know what I want I just have to come to terms in my mind that I do not have to fast forward the situation to get it. If it is attained to fast I will not appreciate the value of what it took to get there. Father allow me to have peace in being still.


For my career. I have invested tens of thousand of dollars in an education that I am not allowing to make a return. The whole Michigan/Tanzania situation did throw me but I need to get back in. Father return to me the passion and motivation that seems to be buried in me under a lot of hurt. I feel you giving it to please allow me to see the sunrise.

Summer Reading Update

Well I did finish reading Angels and Demons however I have not touched Gilead and I am only still half way thru The Miseducation of the Negro. I give myself till the end of July. Well shall see. Angels and Demons was really good. It is actually more controversial to me than the DaVinci Code. I think if that was made into a movie the Catholic Church would really pulls its strings at the highest levels to put a stop to. Maybe it has.........

He's Just Not That Into You

This is the title of a book writtejn by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tucillo. I finished reading it in one day is was that good. It is written in a Dear Greg format where he addresses the issue in the letter. The following are some of the many pointers that I got from the book that I have trully grown from a resort of reading. I actually checked the book out of the library however I feel I will definitely have to go buy it to have in my personal library to reflect on again and again.

1. Deal with men as they are not how you'd like them to be.

2. Don't you want the guy who'll forget about all the other things in his life before he forgets about you? page 26

3. Calling when you say you're going to is the very first brick in the house you are building of love and trust. page 27 You should be dating a man who's at least as good as his word. page 28

4. Men are never to busy to get what they want. page 30

5. Meeting someone you like and dating him is supposed to make you feel better no worse. page 32

6. Why should you feel honored for getting scraps of his time. page 40

7. The reason it's so painful when someone disappears its you have to face the fact that the person you loved had probably left you a long time before he grabbed his coat and scrammed. (key to me) page 113

8. But I guess the hope is that when a guy no longer wants to communicate with me and doesn't have the manners or courage to tell me that to my face, he's given me all the information I need. (this spoke to my heard deeply based on a current situation I an trying to see myself thru)page 115


One keep point the writers make in the opening pages (page 8) is that the reason we allow our shelves to go thru such drama is because every relationship we admise burst with a greatness that we hope to have in our own life. and the more you value yourself, the more change you'll have of getting it.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

THe Fourth of July

A friend of mine referred me to a speech given by Frederick Douglas about his feeling about celebrating the United States Independence - commonly called the 4th of July. I must give this speech context. When the United States started celebrating the 4th in 1776, African Americans were slaves and thus were not at liberty to enjoy the so called independence of fellow whites.

The following is an excert from a speech Frederick Douglas gave on July 5, 1852 titled 'The Meaning of the 4th of July for the Negro.'

What, to the American slave, is your Fourth of July? I answer: a day that reveals to him, more than all other days in the year, the gross injustice and cruelty to which he is the constant victim. To him, your celebration is a sham; your boasted liberty, an unholy license; your national greatness, swelling vanity; your sounds of rejoicing are empty and heartless; your denunciation of tyrants, brass-fronted impudence; your shouts of liberty and equality, hollow mockery; your prayers and hymns, your sermons and thanksgivings, with all your religious parade and solemnity, are, to Him, mere bombast, fraud, deception, impiety, and hypocrisy-a thin veil to cover up crimes which would disgrace a nation of savages. There is not a nation of savages. There is not a nation on the earth guilty of practices more shocking and bloody than are the people of the United States at this very hour.

Go where you may, search where you will, roam through all the monarchies and despotisms- of the Old World, travel through South America, search out every abuse, and when you have found the last, lay your facts by the side of the everyday practices of this nation, and you will say with me that, for revolting barbarity and shameless hypocrisy, America reigns without a rival.

For the complete text of the speech please visit the following website:

http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/aia/part4/4h2927t.html

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Love Lesson #9

Maybe he's just not that into you

a relationship book title by Greg Behrendt, Liz Tuccillo and I thought it was pretty interesting concept and I was wondering when do you know that someone is really no longer interested in you.